We’ve all seen that Christmas cartoon with the ghost of Christmas past, present and future, right? Well, I had an interesting encounter like that, this morning… Minus the Christmas of course lol! Now before I start, I don’t want to spook anybody out with what I’m about to share. I am indeed a Christian but as most of you know, I don’t use my blog nor my music to push a Christian agenda (so to speak). Although I try not to contradict what I stand for and who I serve in the way that I create, I try to just let my life and my choices and my overall character be the primary way that I push that agenda in pleasing God. With that being said, this will be one of the few times that I will touch on spirituality but I’m not pushing what I believe on anyone. I think that what I am about to share can be felt and appreciate by us all regardless of where your Faith lies…
This morning, before I even got out of bed, In a matter of about 20 minutes, I was walked through about 15 years of my life. Literally, hundreds of scenarios that I’ve encountered, flashed before my eyes. Things that I know that I had no business doing. Things that I thought were a good look but in hind sight were just plain ole stupid. Relationships that I mis-handled. People whom I’ve hurt. Money I’ve blown. Opportunities that I botched up. Time spent on people and in places that was just all wrong. Relationships that I never should’ve even entertained. Health risks that I just walked right into. And even situations in which I was protected and didn’t even know that danger was hovering over me. To go through all of these things and still be here… in the condition that I am in right now, I had to give thanks. And if you can relate, then you can relate.
Paint this picture… A man and woman get married. In that marriage, obviously a certain amount of time, effort, dedication, etc… must be given by each party. But imagine instead of the man giving that time to his woman, he gives it all to other women… AND she even allows him… Better yet, she even pays for the dinners that he takes these women to. She supplies him with protection while he sleeps with these women. She gives him gas money so that he can drive to see these women. That analogy might be a bit crude but that’s what God (Or a higher power, or an energy, or the universe, etc… depending on what you believe) does for us. It’s called Grace. It’s a protection and sort of a “Get out of jail free card” for all of the foolishness that we do. God loves us so He gives us grace. For most of us, Grace is the reason that we even have anything left… Grace is the reason that we’re even alive.
I was shown just how much time, dedication, money, and overall effort that I stole from my own purpose, from my own destiny, from my own loved ones, and from my own marriage to God and gave it to all of these other people and things that don’t even matter. He showed me that this morning. He also showed me that Grace is not something that lasts forever. Grace is a limited time offer. Grace will run out one day.
Side Bar- One key thing that stuck out to me was a relationship that I mis-managed. It’s a situation that’s sensitive to me, and something that I’ve known long before this morning but it was shown to be again and in an even more important light this morning. It is/was a relationship with a Big Brother figure of mine. This is a dude who put my career into position, my mind into proper perspective with several things, my bank account in the black, and even my creativity/talents into a new arena. And out of me wanting to step out and do things in a selfish and even inconsiderate fashion, I put a major dent in our relationship. I know you’re reading this right now, Big Bro, and in front of the thousands of followers, fans and supporters that I have, I want to thank you again for the talk you allowed us to have a couple of months ago and again I offer up my most sincere apologies. I know I still have obligations on my end as well as some tasks of reconciliation but please know that our bond is one of the major things that flashed before my eyes this morning and it’s a bond that God granted me as a deliverance from a path that I was headed down that I thank God never came to fruition.
This is deep y’all. If you can relate to Grace, then you can relate. If you can’t, you won’t… but maybe one day you will. Let He that hath ears listen…
Enjoy your weekend, family.
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